Letter to my friends:
I just wanted to share some VICTORY I've had lately. I know that something God has taught me recently is that I haven't had the faith I've needed in the past. And sometimes faith seems like an ethereal, illusive thing to all of us. So, the reason I have not had victory (in the past). of developing a positive self image was because I was not putting ALL my faith effort (all my strength-muscles) :). into believing the things that were said about me. I can see this in some of my other friends with low esteem as well. It's like lots of people could say nice things and it didn't even matter. It was hard to believe those things. God showed me that I had to deliberately BELIEVE. THere is some amount of wounded pride within me. I don't know everything, but I do know the price for getting rid of this, is deliberately opening up. It feels painful, and I know there are ways I was shut tight as a clam (and preferred life that way)! lol. Although I didn't. Life is pretty miserable as a clam, actually, At least, it is not nearly as fun! as all those other outgoing creatures swimming around and having a blast with their life! 
I thank God for revealing these things to me and I look forward to seeing what He is going to do in my life!
And I hope the lives of others as well. :)
Sometimes it's hard to choose belief, but it is like choosing hell or heaven.....really.
