A tiny voice, like a Who down in Whoville

Wow, it's hard to do this on your phone!

I was thinking about this voice that is so rare, almost as rare as the voice that puts themselves last..... But not quite.

This is the voice that denies oneself pleasure for a greater good.  I was thinking again about why I have chosen loneliness and some amount of heart break instead of marrying (or falling into bed with, as people do nowadays) the man I am most attracted to.

The answer amusingly reminds me of how the Japanese built their companies, how their automotive industry obtained huge success.  They did not realize great monetary rewards, but instead kept re-investing and improving their product and sustainability.

So, in this way, I am improving (which is GOD and i) myself. Really, it is He that is improving me and I only have to cooperate with Him. But, maybe loneliness will be short-termed. I actually am finding jewels in this desert of loneliness, of having no one to belong to, no intimacy with a spouse.  Truly, He is building me, into a great cathedral... It's fun to watch Him build.....

But the relationship my flesh desires is really a cheap model.  One that cannot last.... One that would be a broken down vehicle and a lot of misery in the future.   But.....I can change him, he will change!  ....a lot of women say.  Sadly, no he won't. And it's ludicrous to expect him to.

But the vehicle that is "save up now, suffer a little," is the Rolls Royce with great returns.  Even if another great 'vehicle' never comes along, I have built an exponential, un-countable amount of heavenly returns. I know us temporal creatures don't care about that, ... But like your mother or father say, "Some day you will!!"

Remember, save now, deny yourself (only possible if you are willing and with God's help).
Look to Jesus to cover your wounds.  Of course, you will not be without pain. No one in this life escapes that.  But your pain will be less in the long term, and your joy greater for choosing Jesus.  I cannot describe how wonderful, what a wonderful and good healer He is.  If you need help knowing this, listen to"Reckless Love" by Cory Asbury, watch Akianne paint about Him, read your Bible (novel idea) lol.... There are so many, many great resources that will encourage you to stay true to your King, even Pinterest. Type "God's Love" on the internet. Keep searching, searching/seeking  Him. Don't give up until He reveals Himself to you.

To Shop or not to Shop

I need.......
I need..................
I need this, that and the other thing!

Well, I believe the Lord told me to write this post out here so there must be someone who needs it!
Something the Lord has taught me and I am eternally grateful for!  is not to shop.
What!?
Anyway,  I mean not to waste my valuable time seeking things out.

Not that I occasionally don't go to the internet and click a few buttons to get something that fills in a place in my decor or some handy tool...but honestly, in the past, I have been so (sadly) guilty of spending hours (and hours) on the internet looking for just the right wallpaper (in fact, I am so picky, I actually MADE my own for the bathroom) or the right shoes or the right slacks or.......you name it!

But like I said, the Lord and I have been making progress (leaps and bounds in this area).  I am learning to trust Him, that He gives so many, many, many great gifts! 
I almost can't even replay to you the number of times
I have gotten some little article of clothing that I needed......you know not really, (like the white belt to match my white jeans).....and it cost 50 cents!

The miracle happens when I wait upon God....and don't go seeking.....But just wait for His timing.  


In fact, there are lots of little shopping 'miracles' that I have experienced.  I have learned to listen to the voice of the LORD telling me when to go shopping (not saying I am always 100% right or hear him correctly all the time).....Really, is it MY voice telling me to go shopping right now or His?  But there have been many times where the Lord has blessed me with much needed clothing and it is ALWAYS at a much needed price!  So, I have more reason to praise and thank Him for being my God and caring about all my needs to the tiniest detail! 
A couple of months ago, I really did hear the LORD (Holy Spirit), the Voice, however you call Him, telling me to go to Shopco.  I knew it was His voice vs. mine, because I really did not want to go.  Really, Lord? 
So, anyway, jeans were on sale, exactly  the style I had been wanting and the right (comfortable) fit!  And as a bonus, there was a beautiful shirt that was flattering for me on clearance (if you saw my closet, you would know that I do not need any more shirts!),  but God is good that way!
He just doesn't appreciate it when we spend unnecessary time seeking these things out.....That, in the bible, is actually called idolatry . (Exodus 20:3-4)

I could go on and on about my other 'shopping miracles' but I won't bore you (or myself!) with all the tedious details! :)

I had a little miracle in regards to this happen just this week.

I am probably going garage saling this weekend....or some weekend this summer.  Just because lately every time I put an article of clothing on, (some that I love and wear at least once a week) I think, yeah that's right, I got this at that garage sale!  Or some of my home furnishings and kitchenware that I use constantly.  I thank God for providing for me!

So, I am in need :) of some curtains for my bedroom...my closet door and one window.
I am excited to see how the Lord will provide!
to be continued

......the LORD knows you have need of these things.  :) .
Have a happy day!